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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
@ 9:05:00 PM

DISAPPOINTMENT
thats how i describe my feelings since yesterday
how to describe?

its like all the hard work we did went to i-dont-know-where
people say its expected
but one would never know unless they are the ones on the stage
it isnt expected
it never is
giving in the hard work and best efforts
i expected that they wont go to waste

no matter how unwilling i was to go into choir last year
i guess it changed during this period of intense training for syf
i was for once kinda enthu

disappointment came when something better is expected
but it never came
and there will not be a second chance in my life for a next syf competition
and i couldnt achieved what i always want to achieve

i know that i should just forget and move on
but its hard
that disappointment still dwells on me
hard work doesnt gurrantee results, does it?
i admit i was rather moody today
even though i told myself that there is nothing to be disappointed of as long as we gave in our best
i was really disappointed
and i was really down today
and it got worse with a lot of things

not feeling well
stomach flu
intestines cramping
arghh

damn idiotic
:(

9:05PM

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XINYI (:
xnn, with a small amount of weirdness,
a big amount of clumsiness, always so blur,
a great loving for sleep, a major loving for shopping, chocolate, fishballs and strawberries
the always blind as a bat, deaf as idontknowwhat,
speak without thinking, do without thinking,
forever dumb and short, never uses her claws
but then again, it still makes her happy. (:
create &inspire.