i thought i already forget the pain
forget about how the words struck me hard on my heart
i thought it didnt really cause me much hurt

but it flows back
all at once
the hurt when i heard it that day
suddenly, i feel that what said was right
most of the time, i am useless
most of the time,i only could sympathsize, to empathsize
but not to really help in anything
guess whatever said jolts me up
made me feel like perhaps all the while i am lying to myself
that i really wasnt that helpful
when people are sad or when they have problems
that i was really useless
that telling me wasnt going to solve anything

made my self esteem waaaaaaaaay low

i never thought it this way
i always think that if i listen and only listen, its good enough le.
but i was wrong, wasnt i?
what i think wasnt true
i actually wasnt being much help

it hurts
and now when i think of the words, it hurt badly

i feel empty suddenly:(

11:36PM