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i ccant seem to find anything i want

went home at bright bright 330pm!
thats like the earliest day of my jc2 life.
and the sun is still shining
ever since SYF practices,
i went home everyday with no sun
its like 7 or 8pm
or 6pm
no bright bright sun
i hate going home from SCHOOL with dark sky
or no sun shining brightly
made me feel so moody depressed
thats also why i hate rain
i detest raining
cos it makes me moody depressed and makes me very crappy
and aggressive
stupid rain go away!
haha
i think i am way high today

feel really tired these few days
completely knocked out at 10pm
the only thing i can do at 10pm is to chat and chat non stop
cant even wake up at 6am
i have to have my mum nudging me shaking me before i reluctantly open my eyes
nt that i slept early
i probably slept like 4 hours
or rare times 7hours
thats when there is no hwk which is oh so rare.
cant even wake up early to study
i cant even hear my mum calling me sometimes
haha

packed my notes for block tests
and realised there is a awful HEAP of notes
to be studied in 4 weeeks time
along with homework
sleep whats that?

iam like standing at some crossroad
wondering which way to go
the tried and had failed way or the new way?
could it fail if i try again?
or could i regret if i dont?
or vice versa?
i hate that question and i hate my indecisiveness
and i am hating your blunt manner
which i have no right to hate
and i know thats irritating.
and maybe avoiding and avoiding it makes me irrritating to you too
i will sleep on it and maybe i can find a answer


loads of things going on
i tried as much as possible to adopt a nonchalant mood
but i think i failed
lol

lalalalaa...

8:46PM