its a sad feeling
suddenly got this feeling

choir concert is like tmr
and i dont feel the excitement or urge
or enthusiastic.
no one wants to go anyway
ok not no one, but some dont want to go
this was like my second concert since sec school
and i can still rmb the first concert, not a single best friend of mine go for it
so whereas others were waiting for their best friends
i was doing nothing
and i hate that feeling.
hence i tried to go for my friends' concerts

feeling rather down for the lack of support maybe?
or perhaps for the many many things that happen

patience tried as what claud says
my limit is stretching real thin
and i suspect its about to snap
and when it snaps, its most probably that i am alone.
cos i prefer it that way

accepting what others are
accepting the facts
the truth

feeling tired and sick of a lot of big fat small thin things
wonder when it can stop
wonder when everything can change
wonder wonder

i hate the feeling of performing and seeing no one i recognise down the stage in the audience
or maybe i have been pmsing lately
haha

i need a break badly

and u are there making me feel very guilty
very guilty
have all those been my fault?

:(

9:45PM