for some warped reason, i am feeling blue.
i think i am going insane
cos i still rmb when i went home from school, i was damn happy, damn cheerful.
and now super big change
i dont dont want to be selfish.
really
i try not to.
i try to be understanding
but i dont like being stood up for.
even though i know u have all the logical and practical reasons
i KNOW
really i do.
the reason is simple...
and is true and it stands.
and i should understand and learn to take it
and stop sulking and being like a spoilt brat
but it kinda put everything i planned on whole
and that makes me moody
it makes me feel pissed and i feel so bitch that i feel pissed
I WANT TO STOP MYSELF FROM BEING PISSED AND UPSET.
but i cant, i dont know how.
i know i shouldnt be that selfish
as vann says, shouldnt only think bout urself and be insensitive.
i know i know i know
i know i know
but i am not a saint
no i am not
and i should be entitled to whinnning
since i didnt get angry, nor did i slammed the phone down
i listen, i understand, i said it doesnt matters
but hell, it does matters a lot but i dont know how to tell u on the phone
i was scared that u might see me as a spoilt and insensitive and totally selfish person.
and i was determined not to be that
and i am not doing it now
i am just...............................sulking and whinning
and i am not a bad person
once i finish my whinning
i would return back to normal
sometimes life isnt fair
i accept that.
i just wish that it doesnt had to spring nasty surprises on me all the times:((