oh this is so great
my promos
is officially dying
my life is officially not good
u know lets just forget it
lets just take it as i dont know u u dont know me
that is easier somehow in a warped sense
its hard trying to concerntrate studying when something is constantly at the back of the mind
so u know
for once i will be the bad guy sincce i seem like the one anyway
lets just forget it
pretend that nth had happened
i rather we forget all than to continue fighting on and on
:C

i cant believe wad happen to my history and biology
total disaster
what happen to all the time and efforts and sleep i have sacrificed to study
god
this is soooooooooo FFFF
u know i cant seem to console myself
i can say a lot of motivating words to people
but i cant say it to myself
i ate loads of chocolate
and try to keep myself calm
so great huh
wasnt really in the mood to go to sch
but have to cos of bio
and finally down to the last paper
but i dont feel happy at all
it isnt that i have high expectations of myself
or i am whining for nth
for some reasons, i can stand to see myself fail or retain or do badly for ONE subject
just one is enough for me to be moody the whole week/month
it isnt that i am a perfectionist
i am not
i just want my grades to be average
when i whine, its just that i couldnt understand where my effort went to
but if i made too much sound, just stop me

life is full of surprises
dont go ard saying that ur life is boring
for people may wish for ur life
dont go ard screaming how eventful ur life is
cos some people wish for that a lot
bottom line: just be happy with whatever life u have

even though it sounds impossible

i have tons of things to say
tons of things to vent
tons of things happening
but i dont know who to talk to
how to talk
and so many things
kinda feel lost
i wish forr ...
actually i also dont know