ok
u know
i wouldnt have written that previous post if i havent been taking these people as friends
believe it or not, i care about them and treat them as friends
anyway i am fine now
its just been on my nerves this whole week
probably made worse by my already bad mood
today
i managed to study my history
so that was an accimplishment

i am avoiding something yah if someone realise
and maybe vann do without meaning to
its just not becos i am a coward and want to hide myself away under my covers
instead it actually had a lot of consequences attached to it if i faced up to it
ok i do sound like a coward now
if u dont know or know, i hate quarrels arguements fights
i will do anything to avoid the unpleasant situation
resorting to keeping quiet or denying or trying to pretend everything is right
but its not
right i mean
i know i am not doing the right thing
i know i need to start talking
i know i need to stop trying to pretend everything is ok
i didnt do that this whole week
and well thats why i am mooody for this whole week
and yah people had been telling me that this week
sorry people for again spoiling your moods
if i can dont come to school, i wont
but i am not someone to hide under the covers when things go wrong
i dont want to be that kind either
its easy to tell me that i shld talk
but when its to be put to practice
its hard
i dont want to start anything
i dont want to do anything to jeopardise what i have now
i am scared of losing what i have
its scary
and i dont know how to deal with it i tink

sometimes nth can solve...
toodles