wedding dinner was nice
haha
a looooooooadds of food
handsome guy
well nice
haha
have to reeaaaaaaallllllly study since promos is just one week away now
and i am here stuck to the computer
not wanting to move
ok i am lazy
and nothing is kinda motivating me now
and i am trying not to think too much
nor read too much into things
afterall wad comes will come ya
i have sort things out with myself lol
which means i kinda talk to myself
spent the whole yesteday cut off almost from other people
and come to a decision while bitching to my cousin
which is i am going to relax
and enjoy my life
and be happy
and not care
and a lot of things
seriously i cant wait for promos to be over
yet at the same time i dont want promos to come too soon
because sad to say, i am NOT prepared yet at all
i gt tons of things which i still haven revise
ranging from bio to chem to history
and trying to not waste my timke which unfortunately i am doing just that now
but i rather call it a form of relaxation
:D
i cant wait to go shopping like i did every week last year
go watch movies like i always do last year
play a fool and have total fun with ak
oh people i miss u guys loads
and your promos had finished but mine havent even start
wait for me u people
read read
which i haven been doing a lot this year
probably due to my laziness
i need to catch up on my sleep too
i am getting way too dependent on caffeine
which itsnt good at all
but this is jc life sadly...
waking up at about 4 am to study with only 4 to 5 hrs of sleep every single day
is totally horrible
i didnt even study that hard during o levels
but still i managd to drag myself up every morning with caffeine help to stay awake in school
which brings me to another point
when i used to love to go yjc in first three months
and would try my best to be present every day
i now love to be absent from school
and its not because i dont like school
or that i am lazy to go
its just *ahem* for some reasons which maybe my dears kris vann would guess
wan to be more peaceful at home
no explosions required and therefore no shouting from me required too
i tend to be a little hot tempered these few days
cos i remembered shouting back after telling myself that i am going to shut my ears up and my mouth too
it didnt work of cos
but i am glad it didnt work
cos i am suffocating from all these
and a lot more which i am not willing to reveal
so yes, i have done my part in shouiting which trust me, makes me feel a lot better than trying to keep everything to myself and trying to pretend nothing happens
because i am not a saint
and never was.
i read this quote, phrase and whatever it is from a bk
it goes like this:
" sometimes someone said something really small, and it just fits right into this empty space
in the heart."
sweettt
which makes me remind of kris vann nat claud
lol
everytime i talk to claud, kris,nat, vann,
especially at times when i am feeling down or a bit insecure
a sentence or word from them always mange to make me feel better
which kinda fits the phrase above
it just fits into this my heart and make my feel whole again
thanks people
:DD
i dont think i am biased
at all
but maybe i do
but it isnt because of the looks or the appearance
its because of the attitude and character
so i am not biased ina very shallow way
lol
ok i need to go buck up
and again stop procrastinating
thats kinda my middle name
lol
i cant wait for things to be back to normal:C
still waiting...