i dont like to be accused again
and for some reason probably becos i was talking about it with vann,
i feel invisible and small again, its like i was non existence
which i guess vann was also thinking about that
i dont need attention to be given to me if i am some goddess
but i just need a acknowledgement
just know that i am there
not bring me there and throw me there like some bag or jacket
then i have to sit there and look so entertained when actually noone was toking to me or anything
waiting for i dont know what
i feel so tiny so invisible
so nobody wants
me...
u know the feeling
go some place with someone
and then thrown there like some bag or jacket
is like i am totally forgotten that i am there
and i cant say anything
have to try and pretend if nth is wrong
it sucks u know
so through this,
i learn again that yes i am invisible and not impt tiny
basically i am just well a nobody
can do with or without
...
which is kinda sad
cos i am so invisible and useless maybe...
ok i know i am saying this for no apparent reasons
but if u are in my shoes, u will know my feelings
which i guess only i will know
lol
i am not saidistic or what
or maybe i should just stop ranting
afterall, i shouldnt be doing that
ok last word
small tiny invisible nobody useless i am
nobody:CC