i super like the song:D
the lyrics is super nice too.
the part of the chorus.
melts lah.
:)
woke up feeling crappy
sick:(
flu
sore throat.
too many chips
kfc
mac
chocolate
HAHA.
feeling crappy and moody
very very.
wonder whats wrong again.
like i say
i had become very quiet
so super unlike myself.
gone was the one who chat and talks and laughs like as if her whole life depends on it.
didnt talk much in company.
didnt want to talk
to anyone.
want to just be alone.
with my books
and my music.
whats wrong with me lah.
:(
makes me real sad just thinking about it.
feels like there isnt much to talk anymore.
suddenly i am lost for words
the rare occasion when i am lost for words with people i am super close to.
weird.
couldnt ramble and ramble on anymore.
couldnt laugh and laugh until there are stitches anymore.
couldnt even sulk pout scowl
frown.
i always have this blank face now
haha buddy knows it and how it looks.
cos i always have it during work.
but i am not dao-ing
or dao
just lost for words
of expression
and feelings.
maybe all my feelings are hidden real down
and i couldnt dig it out.
oh well:((
i dont know how am i like in the past suddenly
you know the talkative noisy crazy one.
dont even know how i manage that
couldnt even laugh like old times now.
its really really depressing lah.
feel like something is stuck in my throat but i couldnt get it out.
that feeling of suffocation.
without knowing whats suffocating me
cos i have nothing to even worry and care about
everything seems to be fine
and working
no shock incidents( and i hope it lasts for as long as it can please)
no more uncertainty problems.
no more irritating issues( there is one lah but that one isnt that bad afterall its always happening)
no more things that requires my attention.
or maybe thats the prob?
nothing that requires me or my attention.
okay back to the same old thought:
that well unless something bad big things happen,
that requires my help, i seem pretty redundant huh?
the feeling of insignificance.
and invisible.
like how i feel i wont be think of unless something big happens and requires my attention and help?
okay thats negative thinking again.
shall zip it.
but again,
there is this nagging thought that tells me
its the truth isnt it?
with or without me
it doesnt matters.
actually it doesnt change anything
there are too many incidents occasions to prove that to me.