i was mistaken as an sec sch student.
booo.
which part did i look like sec sch?
nugggget.

went SUSHI-ing last night
fat ah fat:)

my contact lens broke in the middle.
and i still wearing it.
then this stinging feeling
i still thought is my eye lashes that got in the way.
then realised it broke again.
my eyes are going blind le lah.
my harry potter glasses.
AHHA.
:D


i suddenly feel like going swimming.
haha.
exercise!
or cycling!

random feelings.

feels.
out of touch
with the tv.

woke up late today
first time
of cos i didnt work now.
:)

its this feeling of slacker

but i am liking it.

there is this chinese song
which dman describe me and vann.
its called yi ge xiang xia tian yi ge xiang chiu tian.
damn nice:))


i want go go KBOX again!
haha
got this urge to sing.
:D


i want to so some tanning
but i very lazy
HAHA


days without work
seems longer
haha
i LIKE!

can catch up on reading.
NINTEEN MINUTES
by jodi picoult.
its a damn nice book.


for some reason, i
wanted to study social work.
or psychology.
must be due to the fact that i love to talk.
HAHA
and yes, i do love to chat and talk and talk.

awww
i am hungry.
LOL.
dig for food then
sounds like squirrel.


everyday
i wake up
i tell myself
things will get better.
afterall, how bad can they get when they are like the worst le.
right?

tell myself
that its okay to feel well, emo-ed?
rather than hide all my feelings inside
then suffocate.

tell myself that its okay to move on
its okay to let go.
its okay to forget about all the stupid things.
and just watch it fly away.
like balloons.
but i dont really like the balloons flying away feeling.
like when i was young, i hold on damn damn tight to balloons.
cos letting it fly away
makes me feel sad like i am losing something( it still does now)

i dont really wan tolet go
cos i dont wanna regret.
yet, if i dont, i will probably regret too.
i dont want to lost something without knowing it, you know.
be it friendship, relationship, chances, opportunites.

it takes two hands toclap.
it goes both ways,
and it is going like in opposite direction.
anti parallel.
i dont really know where it will go.
and i am tired of all these
uncertainities
mixture of diff feelings.
the type where u jsut dont know how to explain.
wanted to just say it out,
but you cant cos there is always this feeling of doubt behind everyone.

thats why
i told myself
things will get better.
afterall really, how bad can they get when they are like the worst?