its not okay.



its just not.



its a looooooooooooooooong day

sleepy.



atleast

theere is some normality today.



i wonder whats wrng

or should i even bother.



i dont think so.

far more pressing matters in mind



i wanted to tell myself

its okay.

but i cant.

to me,

it isnt.

to you, you , you out there

maybe it is.



but well

as what claud told me,

life goes on

and its not the end of the world.

cos it isnt.



my mum says

" if you cant make it to uni, look for poly or retake it again."

my dad says:

" or u want to work full time, its okay if you dont want to study anymore."

they just say dont worry, its never the end of the road.



i just realised

that i am be a damn tou tong daughter

but well, they know best:)

when you think

that its the end.

think again.

there are people who are idontknow somehow much diff?

working makes me realised how really diff people are.

diff backgrounds

status.

how i am in my world like stuck there seeing things in a narrow scope.

whatever i have been whining about in the past, i dont think i will whine again

well at least, not so often.

afterall, who am i to whine anyway.

i think nat is right

its getting tiring

since when these things get tiring.

so i should jus forget it.

afterall

whoever said i need guys to survive.

i have been living pretty well.

so maybe its good that he dont get whatever i am trying to say or mean.

cos afterall

am i really doing the right thing?

like the easy jealous part and stuff?

later i cant have any friends that are guys.

in one day,

i think i think a lot.

first time

LOL.