all i know
is its dman freaky.

cos it occured everyday.


why must this kind of depressing thing always fall upon me.
why can i just have a happy relationship
live happily ever after.
like all the fairy tales i used to love.
now i hate it.
cos its just not true.


there is this nagging feeling telling me
i should just stop being sopetty.
like to make some move.

butbut
i am just ahuman.
i got the right to be as petty as i want.

i wonder after this
how long will i take to recover.
years? months?

the worst thing is
i didnt plan al this to happen

some guy waltz into mylife
mess up my life.
caused so much chaos.

all cos he dont want to say what he really feels.
he prefers to guess
to assume.
to feel angry, jealous. or whatever shit.

he is lucky that i never scream at him
( do i even know how to do that?)

it boils down to one thing
he didnt ask for how i feel about him.
he ASSUMES.

bloody hell.
he assumes
that it seem more possible for me and the other guy.
cos we are closer( when?!)
he assumes
that i treat every guys the same.
he assumes
i dont know, that i loathe him?
( HE GOT THE" I HATE YOU"VIBES LOH)
he assumes
that
i am some dimwit
that i cant sense how he feels.
( HELLO I MAYBE YOUNGER THAN YOU, BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I AM DUMBER THAN YOU even though yes, i do act like a kid in front of you, my normal self.)
that i dont think his bloody hints are obvious enough.
they are so obvious that even VANN feels it and she normally dont feel these.
even though i might act blur
answer rather stupidly,
i know
i feel it.
I AM NOT REALLY AKID you know.

you tell me
what am i supposed to do.