oh, i realised i am reaaaaally harsh on my previous post
and for once, LOL i realised vann is right
about this whole freaking thing

maybe when its time to really let it loose.
you have to do it
no matter how much it hurts
cos thats the only thing to do
and i do understand
but i am afraid of the pain:(

i am letting it loose:)

super proud of myself today
cos despite all that stuff, i still managed to finish my 3 chapters of bio
and despite me having to forgo my studies and to give my support,
i can still finish 3
LOL
i think i am going to get this really big fat headache tmr morning when i wake up
i can already feel it
somehow talking it all out, the probs, the hurt pain, the misunderstandings, the feelings
work wonders
even though i was reaaaaaaally reluctant to talk it out
but thanks dear, i think u really bright my day up:)

so right now, i still have
history
a bit of chem
2 more topics of bio

i currently still have one whole load of international history
and one more topic of sea
oh man, 15 chapters of ih
FIFTEEN
lets just say i really dont need to sleep today tmr monday tuesday wednesday thursday
i need all the caffeine i have
i gt a new supply
haha
and stocked up my chocolate supply
i am ready to battle sleep
LOL:)

as i was mass msging to my class 222
i suddenly feel very motivated by myself
LOL
really motivated
thats what probably cause me to study on today even though how tempting it was to go out for shopping with him
but still, i went to support
haha
thats something that i cant compromise or break


i think life is like being on a ship
when the ship is about to sink, there must be things you must let go
there may by rocky times but yet, there will always be sunshine
and lovely breeze
the happy times
and i am starting to appreciate life the way it is
and appreciate love the way it is too

i am so in love with you:)
and i love my bestie vann
we will break the freaking curse
and we will be the oldest
yeah
break the record:D