i am currently very confused

and very very
and u know what, i dont know why i gt myself into this mess
becos i cant find the courage to just say no?
or becos i just cant let go of certain things

obviously it makes me feel so much worse now
i feel like a jerk or a reaaaaaaaally bad person:(

i am so sorry cos i cant give a definitive answer
cos i dont know what in the world am i feeling
and whether i made the right decision or not

i just keep avoiding the issue
keep trying to divert the issue away
so that i dont have to really make a decision
i guesss thats my bad:(

after last night, it feels like the old times
it really feels like
i sudddenly gt this really nice feeling
and then i start feeling bad
am i being too over?
or am i just too blur

but isnt it natural?
or am i the one who is in wrong?

i really dont want to care too much
but somehow i cant
i dont want to be stuck
cos i dont know how to get up
why did it have to come back into my life now?
why did things become so screwed up?


being in school always cheer me up no matter how tired i am
:)
thanks beryl dear, for always giving me the advice and for being there for me today:D
love ya:D

maybe i am petty
but i am really hurt today
for that moment

choir was as usual boring
i couldnt couldnt stand sectionals
i need real formal practices

getting tired from a load of things lately
how when i start talking and blurting out all my probs to kirthika and beryl
did i realise that i actually had been hiding it all in my heart
how i tried so hard to suppress them
how when i finally got them all off my chest while tearing
i feel so wonderful and relax
talking really helps:)

napfa tmr
i dread it :(

i need sleep
badly
my phone bills are going higher and higher

i need to clear the confusing situation:(