seriously i think i am feeling very overwhelmed
and very stress
and i know most of it is due to my laziness
i never studied for test
as a result well was totally not prepared

i "forget" to do my his essay
and hence having to do it in a few days

i did one whole ton of homework
finished up one essay last week
and four essays in 2 days time
i think i am getting the hang of it:)

so my hmwk had shrunk to
two maths papers
alkane tutorial
gp compre
maths tutorial

which isnt very little
but i shall look on the bright side
and say that they are manageable
whoosh:)

i realised one big thing
shopping alone is a really really good way to destress
i went to the new shopping mall in amk
and walked ard it three times even though not all shops are ready
and walked like 2 hrs in the super uper big fairprice xtra
woah i feel so alive again
i like looking at the many many tidbits and chocolates
and i did buy a lot back
hahahhaha
eating fest:D
while walking ard the shopping mall
i feel like suddenly a very small kid walking ard looking at the tall buildings and people ard
which let me assure you is pretty easy since almost everyone is taller than me:)))
LOL
and i like that feeling
i liked the feling of being small
not thinking once about school homework
and all sorts of crappy stuff
as i was doing my essays on tuesday
i suddenly feel like just throwing my paper away
and just cry
and i dont know why
maybe because i feel like breaking down:(
and the feeling sucks
really
cos i dont wan to break down
i think i can handle the stress
and i want to be happy
i am happy when i go to school
seeing people i cared and loved
and people who care about me

now i really feel very "new"
no stress
no thinking about the fears of failing history
i had a nightmare last last night
that i took a levels and found out that i flunked my history
guess it shock me
cos i still stare blankly at the questions they gave me without any idea on how to tackle the qn.
:(
but but i shall start from the beginning
i shall start when i finished dinner
i shall sleeep late today and wake up early tomorrow all to study
i shall start from the very basic
i dont wan to feel the pan each time when i did not put in any effort and preparedness
i dont want to feel the disappointment again
i am going to start NOW:DD
first up today: CHEMISTRY
tackle from the top to bottom

i love the feeing of reenergised and remotivated
it totally spurs me on
and i love 222
lalaalalalalla

oh i think econs students are really poor things
hang on my dears, kris, vann ,claud, nat
the chapter will finish soon
and no more fears then:)

seriously hang on there 222
i think we can achieve what we want
and we definitely will
JIAYOU PEOPLE
supporting you always
:DDD