i read claud blog
that kinda sets me thinking REAllY deep
what she says or writes strikes a chord in me
the thing about happy
u arrived in school in a damn good modd which to me of cos, is super rare probably like once in a whole year.
and then being so happy, u go to meet ur class mates
and then when they are sad or unhappy or moody, u kinda feel down cos i dont know
i always feel sad or unhappy if my friends are feeling that way
and then when u realise u couldnt do a thing to help them to relieve their pain to make them happy, u feel a bit useless feel guilty for being happy and ended being more sad than them.
i sounded a bit retard here
but this kind of feeling, u cant change it it just happens
there are times when i try not to let it affect me
but sadly, it never works
is that like a good thing or bad thing??
it that sensitive or over sensitive??
like today was really tiring.
it started out so fine
so happy at least its a normal day
normal school day
and then ms lim forget about make up pe
so it should be a good day
and then i dont know what happen to me
during chinese lesson while we were having breaks,
i suddenly felt very tired
very down.
i dont know why my mood switched so fast
then in gp, it got worse.
i am sorry since i kinda bring down the mood of jialiang
i was looking at the board while ms tan was telling us about the deadlines
and i suddenly feel very overwhelmed cos there are ton of things to do
and tons of deadlines
and then i suddenly realise that i actually need to do a lot of things
and i feel very suffocated
i think i am not the only one that feel that.
then my mood just gt worse for bio
that mock spa.
haiz...
all in all, today was really bad at the end.
thats the reason i wanted to go home really badly.
at least i wouldnt want my mood to spoil everyone's.
so i rushed home
at least i feel better now
then i realise i am actually quite ok i guess
ok mixed feelingsi gt many things to write
but dont know where to start.
lol

i cant seem to make things right..