for some warped reason, my post which i wrote yesterday night just cant be posted.
so gt to rewrite again
i haven been free this whole weeek
wad with so many things going on
wednesday was history test
studied for the whole monday tuesday
in terms of knowledge, i have
i can memorise the whole stuff
i know all the stuff in notes
and i thoroughly understand
but whats the pt when i dun even know what the question is asking me
thats is seriously depressing
and i cant seem to get it right
and the thing is i dun even know why
and that is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo unsettling
soooo great
where has my effort gone to??
wasted
i am in mouning state
i woke up at 1 pm today feeling oh so refreshed for the first time in a whole week
thats why i like weekends especially saturday
i gt the time to sleep
and i love the feeling of waking up to my body clock and not to my freaking alarm
and the feeling of being sooooooooo well slept
and having time to just indulge in coffee and not having to gulp down my coffee which i did in weekdays.
sooooooooooooooooo nice and great
and then went to have my hair cut first time i went some place to cut by myself and that is cheaper
usually i went cutting with him
and now i gt a feeling i look like a MOUSE
lol
seriously
my bad hair day
not going to sch lol
so i did my homework after staring at myself in front of the mirror for soooooooooo long
trying to figure out a way to look not so mousy
HAHA
i did my maths before flinging my paper away after i realise i forget the formulas to find volume and area and then copying wrong numbers down.
soooooooooo frustrated with myself
finally giving up on the last qn because i dont even understand what the qn want
so went on to study for biology test
which was surprisingly ok
guess i was able to understand afterall
then i daze ard
juist listen to my mp3 and stare blankly at the wall
i found that really very destressing
lol
sound so weird
then nw sitting in front of com
which my mood gone down alot
which i dun even wan to talk about it
which i feel rather ............i dont even know what i am feeling
just feel super tiny
u know now when people ask me whats wrong
i just said i am fine
ok
i dont feel like telling anyone anymore
just feel like keeping to myself or letting it out to the wall?
i dont feel like showing anymore
i just wan to appear happy or be really geniuinely happy in school
just keep all my feelings until i go home
i dont know why i feel this way
but i somehow couldnt find anyone
tinyy...