ok correction to the previous post
i am NOT alone
i gt mbcs!!! kris siewhwa vann minyi!!!
i gt AK!!! and they just get stuck in my heart without even coming out
and i gt friends
ok and dear
lol
actually i am not qute happy today
my block tests really disappoint me so much
especially my gp
feel so shamed
and i dun noe
sad i guess
nothing seems to be able to bring me up i tink
until vann starts being crazy
and make me laugh like mad
and siew hwa she is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUNNY!!!!
i luv the two of u so damn much..
make me laugh until my stomach cramps
lol
thankz babes u two really brighten up my day everytime
and of coz KRIS
she like light bulb
brighten up my face everytime i see her
coz she is soooooooo happy to look at
lol
and i luv her sooooo much
and minyi....
she so funnnnnn
haha
thankz gals
loads
and so many pple
who can make me laugh
haha
actually everyone lah
lol
since i am sort of crazy
sometimes i tink i am a bit confusing
cos i can be moody at this moment and laugh like crazy at the other moment
mood swings
lol
call it pmsing
or anything
sometimes i wish that i would stop my heart frm feeling
so i wouldnt have to care so much
when i am feeling kind of shit
and i wont fell guility
i absolutely HATE that feeling of feeling guilty
cos this feeling made me feel like i am the worst human in the world
guilty sounds sooooooooooo cruel
and i hate that feeling
and i sometimes do have the feeling
so yeah i kinda hate myself sometimes
quite
SOMETIMES
lol
oh shucks
tmr is ptm
and i hate it
i did not do anything bad
not at all this time
but somehow i know my results will be the topic tmr
and i believed it will be on how bad my results are
something i am soooo embarrassed of or shld say disappointed
i kinda have quite gd expectations of myself
so yeah these results kinda disappoint me
but still......
i will bounce back
and try and start again
afterall
that is my aim
to pick myself up when i fell ,to try again and not to give up at the slightest failure
MY wonderful aim/thinking/
i am feeling better i guess
frm all the laughing toking blogging
and i am not feeling guilty anymore
dun wan to waste my time
and my feelings and my efforts
lol
i just feel so blessed
cos someone undertands me so much to not be pissed at it
even though it is quite a big thing
and if it is other
sure angry scold fight
lol
so yeah at least no fight
only me feeling guilty
and he have to tell me to not feel guilty
and say it wasnt my fault
i did no intend to make it this way
wohooooo
where did u get this kind of guy??
lol
no where
lol
i sound so crap
and i hate this feeling too
of being scolded when i am trying to put sth across like advicing others
to work hard or sth
or even get barked back whgen they are frustrated
i feel hurt
A LOT
even though i dun show it
ok long post
and yes i do love you