i think
it feels very alone today.

i badly wanted to talk to someone.
or maybe not.
i dont know.

that bloody feeling lingers on and on.
want to scrap it off badly.

feel damn low moody upset and alone today.
sometimes i think its really unfair.
why cant i find anyone at all.


i did went for a jog today at 7am in the morning.
and i realised how long i didnt run.
which is damn long.
last time i run was this year actually.
but a short one.

went to see the doc again.
i had seen the doc for more than 5 times this year.
strange since i only seen once last year, never more than twice.

my course registration time is tmr.
and i am still not sure of my electives.
like do i really want to take something similar to history back.
errr maybe not.
scary.



sometimes i just want to pretend i didnt know a thing.
dont wan to say a thing.
or do a thing.

because whatever i have done, it seems wrong, unsuitable, insensitive.
i feel so tired.
like why dont we switch and now you tell me what to say.

i am like losing contact with the outside world.
hermit crab.
lol.

if i am willing to give my time,
why isnt it done in both ways.

why do i always have to feel that i am all alone everytime i am sad.
:(

off to eat my favourite food.
i shouldnt do so much.