i like my new blogskin
its cute.

damn wrong mood today
lets just say everytime i open my mouth to speak
i am pratically lashing out
in a damn pissed tone.

hence, i kept real quiet today.

cure my mood, someone??

i need to talk.
yet, i cant unless whoever is fine with hearing me with that tone and who tolerates my lashing out.
and thats not fair to that person right?
right.

telling myself to keep up the hope and chances
for so many few weeks.
getting tired
lets face the truth.
harsh truth
lets have it quick okay?
now now now.
or tuesday.
get it over and done with
so i can go and cry and sulk over it.

not that i can really say it out.
cos first, cant possibly spoil the mood of people who have it.
second, cant make the mood of the people ,who are the same with me, worse.
so i ended up telling it to myself only,
like talking to myself.

i always ended up with the same thing you know?
the phrase, "dont worry." or the" what about us?"
getting quite tired of it.
thats my stupid self talking.


i wish well.
for just a dose of magic
or the true and tried words,
the" are you okay?"
would be nice.


i cant speak.
when i want to sulk.right?
right.

i super like the panda.