damn damn damn damntired
was doing sorting today
then went back to type
felt drained of any energy.
just super drained
cant even talk,
feel like sleeping.
it feels weird:(
like some virus attack me all of a sudden

OH I DRANK A LOT OF WATER TODAY!
buddy was surprised i think
cos i refilled my bottle twice
normally they say i neevr refill my bottle de.
HAHAHA.

anyway
i am feeling groggy
and drained now.
and i dont know where is my buddy
haha.

was supposed to go shopping or kbox with vann and buddy
now only left buddy le.
oh well,
LETS HAVE BUDDY POWER SHOP:D

broke like hell though
waiting for my bloody pay next monday
nugget damn slow
AND I STILL HAVEN GOTTEN MY PREVIOUS PAY
got to start to bug my agent:(

i feel the blues suddenly.
dontknowwhy
like things are going well
or seems to go on well.

maybe in actualy fact,
i wasnt happy
like really.
laugh laugh laugh
but it wasnt true?

ohhhh i dont like these.
dont like this thing about having to pretend you are fine
and smile and laugh
when you feel like breaking apart
when you feel like just being alone.

and yet, i dont know why is there such feelings.
i mean i laugh like there is no tomorrow in the company sometimes leh.
courtesy of my buddy and two supposed to be owners or socalled buddies.
oh well.
maybe i am just laughing for the sake of laughing.
i dontknow:(((

all i know is i am this close to come to breaking point
to close to break apart
this close to just close everything up

know this freaking irony or funny thing?
nobody knows that.
nobody knows i am close to tears
to breaking apart.
cos its just not me right to do that?

like nobody really knows what i feel.
its becoming like not that i dont want to say, but more of nobody wants to hear.