i am like super broke.

okay no more eating more than ten bucks a day.
:(

i think i am a damn weird person.
when i get upset, or was down,
i get extremely high,
very high.
like using that to numb whatever i am feeling.

and after that highness,
i ended up all tired, all drained of energy,
kind of like collapsed.


no matter how much i say i dont mind,
the truth is i do. cos everyone does.
its just whether i show it or not.
and i have been hinting, talking, saying about this for close to 3 years
and yet, no one seems to get what i mean, or understand, or perhaps its already been taken granted of.
and like i said, i am very tired.
tired to the point that i just shut up.


i just realised i dont understand any fuck from my notes.
its like bloody foreign lang.
and i am bloooooody pissed.
and blooody demoralised.


and nobody really understands.
and nobody bothers or cares anyway.

and i am in a very bad mood.