i just found out i dont need to pay for the repair of the phone.
cos i still have warranty

lucky, i am very broke already.

i know what my twin means or feel.
many a time, i feel the exact same way too.
like why do so much, when i know there will not be any word of thanks or appreciation.
make me wonder why i am doing so much, killing my brain cells.
wasting my time, my sleep, my leisure.
its so depressing:((
like its okay, if i dont get some award for my effort, afterall i dont start off wanting it, but a sincere smile, a thank you, isnt it like necessary, even part of what friendship should be?

it makes me not in the mood to do anything at all.
like forget it, who am i anyway?
somebody so insignificant.
somebody everyone can do with or without .
like a...invisible friend.
doesnt really matters huh.

i feel so small( nothing to do with my height or my size)
so small to the point, i could just vaporise.
and noone would notice.

like who cares whether i am going or not, something like that.

i think i am having mood swings.
serious ones.




i think i change.
not that naive and gullible anymore.
okay, maybe still that gullible.
but not that naive anymore.
like everybody move on,
and eventually if one side dont continue holding on,
then ultimately the friendship will just collapse.
so when you know one side is not holding on,
i think its better to let go too.
like no matter what you do or say, the other side will not hold on.
so what for suffer the hurt and disappointment in the end.

learning to put things aside, behind, away
and move on.
i think thats a tough one.
but we gotta learn, one way or another.

i learned through tears and mood swings.

i think i'll keep a distance from today onwards.
for the protection of myself.