my gastric hurts:(

i think i ate too much today.
too much chocolates
and coffee.
the result of staying at home, not working.

wasnt feeling emo.
just some thoughts which i tend to generate a lot.

i like being alone at home.
call me a loner
or yes, zibi lah.
but i just like.

there is something
calm and serene about the quietness of my house when there is only me in there.
i like it.
not surrounded by people
but just quietness.
tv sounds
music
my own voice

for once, i wasnt around people
hearing other people's voices.
getting involved in issues that doesnt concern me.

i wasnt being self centred.
but sometimes being self centred is good isnt it?
like for once, able to focus on what i want what i need what i am facing,
instead of her probs, his probs, their probs, all the his hers their they she he it.
i need a break.

there is this common perception
that not talking much means loner, zibi.
guess it isnt.
to me, it means a lot of things, it means i am pissed of, means i have a bad day, means i am tired, means i might just need some time off.

but it doesnt means i am arrogant, snobbish, dao.
i am super chatty and noisy once you know me actually.

if the first impression is what that makes some people drew away from me.
then i guess so be it(:


i need a longer break.
not disconnected from this world.
just a break.