oh mannnn:((
gastric.

ate too much oily food or fried food le lah:((

feeling horrible:(

towards the end of the day
was feeling rather moody.
and i was just saying that i am much happier
i am lah
but was thinking about what was said

that thing about me avoiding the problem
situation
i always does that.
anything that crops up, any problem about this, just run
or hide until time fades it.
of cos then there will be no friendship to speak of.

no contact = how to have friendship?


i always tell claud
she got to face up to her probs
she got to stop avoiding it.
got to treat it face to face.

guess what?
i dont knw how to practise what i preach.
because i really believe and its proven to me at least, that when i avoid it, it does just pass by.
it does get forgotten.
it does get better, in terms of my feelings and mood
whether the other gets better, or feel okay, or anything,
i dont really know and seriously i dont really give a damn

i dont carry out this measure of avoiding normally,
cos usually i am much of a peace maker
much of the pretend evrything is still fine and cheery person.
then its only carried out when there is absolutely no way to get about
when i cant seem to even do that pretending
or be able to think hey i will feel bad.
the only thinking will be hey i dont really want to give a damn anymore.
because i cant take the wishy washy
i cant take the uncertainty
i cant take all the stupid emotions


i rather let myself by happy
and let whoever be the one upset or hurt or anything
afterall we gotta be selfish at times dont we?

i run from the situation
from the problem
the least i am reminded, the better.
or thats what i think lah.

afterall everybody treat things differently
they got different methods to get over thngs.

everyone's perspectives are different
everyone look at things differently
cant really say who's right or wrong

my method is the win-and-won method for me at least:)
for the other?
i dont want to know


i super like my mascara
esp when i got super little short almost invisible eyelashes.
that said,
i am too lazy to put on those make up when i go out.
like fake eyelashes? oh puh-lese
haha
i am known for hating all those hard work


damn freaking full
ate too much today.
so hence
my gastric decided to rebel against me
major boo
rahhhh


i still haven finish my whywhylove
i want!:)

my med is making me damn damn drowsy.
and vann is not online for me to send her songs
hha.

OHOHOH
i just rmb
that i got a nightmare last night
okay, not really nightmare lah since u all will probably think i am weird or dumb
i dreamt of raccoons leh.
i think they are damn cute WHEN THEY ARE IN THE ZOO okay.
dreamt that i was walking out of school
( i dont know whether its yjc or what)
then saw MANY MANY RACCOONS!
got big ones lying on the floor and the grass.
THE SMALL ONES ARE SCAMPERING AROUND NON STOP
and its really a lot
like everywhere i turn, WOAH RACCOONS.
i dont know why i AM SO FREAKNG SCARED
and disturbed
but i was, sadly
like trying to get out as fast as possible.
but everywhere i try to go,
the raccoons are all running around across my feet, and everywhere.
woah I FELT THE FEAR IN MY DREAM LAH.
i got so scared that i woke up , should say BOLTED up.

but i dont know why i so scared leh.
i mean RACCOONS?!
they are cute.
its just maybe so many of them running wildly
scared me off.

xia si wo lah.
of cos i laughed damn hard when i rmb it in the morning
damn funny
that time i dreamt of tortoise big one
nw i dreamt of raccoons.
whats next?
sheeps?
cows?
snails?
LOL.


okay dead tired
nights:D