it has always been
he she you they them.

it has never been I, me, myself.
never never
neevr.

since when has it been.
when has i been able to think
about my probs
when has i been able to feel sad for myself
when has i been able to do the sulking
to do the ranting to being super petty
to just lash out.

never.
i always cheated myself
sayingthat i had moved on
i had recovered from the whatever-sadness.
but the truth
i just simply tuck it into one part and then detach it away from me.
it has never been
eevr been
resolved.

bt nobody knows
nobody knows when i am feeling sad
nobody knows when i am crying
its like i sound cheery online
thru sms
but i am crying.
and nobody knows huh.
nobody does.

cos its never been me
I
myself.

when i jus need
a ear
or a shoulder
i wonder
always
do i have the right to ask for that?
really
do i?

for some reason, i always think i dont.
maybe its cos
whenever i tried to rant, in the end its always the other way round.
i ended up listening
when i tried to show whatever sadness i have
i ended up dishing out the consoling words.
me?
i forget about myself
thinking
its okay, mine is so small problem only.

( no, i think i am not a saint, nice or good. in fact i think i am stupid, dumb and that to me is like a bad thing.)


maybe to myself
i have always think that i am insignificant
like with or without me,
it doesnt really matters anyway, life still goes on and things still happen when they re supposed to.
so to me, i never matters at all to anyone, or to myself.
because i feel, who am i? not someone impt at all.

wahhhh its a damn emo post:(

forgive me then. i might die of sadness if i dont say it out.


went expo for this john little sale
wahh
the queue is like 584764876347674636635 long.
queued for like dont know how long lah.
bought shoes
belt
skirt

i dont feel really happy at all.

burger king-ed again.

i am damn full.


was listening to my ipod
then realise something
every diff song reminded me of diff people
something i have said to vann
like the song BEI PAN reminds me of pop
then big girls dont cry is JH
the umbrella song by rihana is xj.

haha
see how much they love to sing.
sing until we can remember them by songs.

makes me kinda miss all those times in yjc in our wonderful air-con classroom
which of cos they sang
as usual.
wahaha.
really really miss those times.
:(

MANU
scored
3
haha
wahahahaa.
for some reason, i am high
esp when i know someone who likes spurs and spurs are losing
so YES
MANU LEADS:D

walalalaala.

emomomo
i got terrible mood swings