after sleeping for so long
i felt alive once again.
can u imagine just plain typing and then checking through the cheques can be so tiring?
i cant lah at first.

but now its true.
so BEWARE, vann:D

tata.
feel so so alive
after i work,
i start loving my weekends
cos before work,
everyday feels like weekend to me mah.
sleep eat watch tv.
what to do.
now is wake up early
rush for work
cos i have a tendency to bathe damn slow
haha think well u people know.
must think of what to wear
no jeans
no slippers
no shorts
try to put on some makeup
(which of cos, is the super basic lah)
fly to work.
looking forward to lunch break
then to go home
i always eat dinner at like 9pm
then after that sleep
growing fat le:(

same routine every weekday
shopping? dont even need to think
broke
but my PAYDAY IS NEXT WEEK!
wohoo.
open champagne for me!:D
MOOLAH HOM
esp after all the stupid OT i had done
9 bucks per hour leh.
my papercuts and rotting eyes
all worth it.
KACHING!

whoever says studying is harder than work
get yourself cured please.
i rather go for the whole day of chem hist bio lects tut maths gp pe.
then to go to work.
at least i can just sit there and listen
nobody to come ranting at you when u are slow.
boo.
nugget.

i miss 222 can.
class outting please:)


read thru claud's previous posts.
realised yeah what she wrote applies.
rather face the problem upfront
and take it like this
then to try to avoid and escape
virgoians are just that realistic and practical.
i hope.
but its different for each individual even for virgoians
how i wish i could be like claud
able to just forget and leave everything behind
but thats just not happening
uniqueness:)


why am i blabbering over things that happen in 2007
like those uncertainty and the-not-so-sure feelings
it should be thrown away.
the uncertain feelings
the is it true or not
the having to muse over different things
the feeling confused and terrible over different actions.
the WTH is it so nugget the whole situation feeling.

they should be thrown
vanished
and not to be dig up and think again.

but as human,
as a virgoian( err nolink?)
somethings are just not that easy to be thrown away
esp when it has somethng to do with feelings.
cos they cant be controlled
if you have feelings,
can you force yurself to just ditch it?
like a cleaner
just put it in the recycler
or rubbish bin
think when it happens,
humans will be pretty scary.

a day of nothing to do makes me think a lot.
used to tink that everytime
when i just be and ostrich
just bury everything underneath
it will be easy and much more simple.
realise
it just not what i think
easy for the people ard you maybe
but not for oneself.
afterall
u buried them in yourself.
they are still in you.

people ard you suffer maybe
you do too.
and everything supposed to be peaches and cream
just gets into turmoil.
kinda hate that feeling
the feeling when u know something is wrong
is off, and you just cant put it right
or when somethng is going to happen,
and you dont know what its gonna cause
when you have to keep guessing
the is it true or noe
but u will never get the answer
cos first, its not somethng to be asked
and second, the pride and face problem.

thats irritating isnt it?

in 2008
i think i shall get rid of these habits
stupid habits
paranoia
the having to make myself terrible by musing over things i dont know whether is real or not.
telling myself everything is peaches and cream
when they are clearly not
worry tad too much.
and to promise to use my brain more LOL. for of cos impt stuff
vann will love this.
:)

but then be my regular self
the one who talks without sense
the one who whether talk or not
but still get shoot
the one who laughs talks without thinking too much.
the one who thinks that hey its hard to get angry over stupid stuff.
the one who seldom went into the category of flying into a temper.
the one who thinks simple
thinks nice
thinks wonderful.
just what i was minus all the stupid habits when i was in jc.

this year will be better than last year
cos i wont know what it held for me
and that is intriguing huh.

and maybe when i like a guy
i would tell him about it
and i would have a nice and wonderful relationship
no stupid nonsense again.
just fun and laughter.
talks chats jokes.
and start the dating process.
nice huh?
peaches and cream.

i know i will someday:)
its happy to know that.
yeah claud?:D

work i am loving it
why hate something u are doing everyday
will start loving it on mon
with van:)

i love myself
haha zilian.

happy things stuff memories
of 2007
all behind.
:)

not going to harp on it anymore.

nat, i am going to stop thinking
and forget it
yes, its true
i promise you.
this time,
no more telling you i cant and stuff.
cos i can
you too okay blossom?
:D