planned to wake up early today to do chem
the thing is i did wake up early
more of like i wasnt able to really get to sleep anyway
but at the moment where i have to study
i fell asleep
shows how much i hate to study:)

yes claud, i am fine
i am ok
dont worry bout me:)

guess i feel bad.
its a feeling that keeps growing
and growing
feel like some betrayal.
guess like what nat says, just have to stop thinking about it.
but it just feels......wrong.
the nagging feeling of ?

so i ended up sleeping for 4 hours
which will probably make me sleep in the noon
study? what study?
haha

i said yesterday i dont want a's to come that fast
now when i think about it, i want it to come now
forget about the part that i am not prepared
or about the paart that i got no worry no anxiety its like numb.
i just want to get it over with
finish
zooom
wham
finish
and i no longer have to keep knowing what is the stupid causes of the arab israeli war
the stupid evolution theory the stupid ionic equilibrium the stupid nationalism the stupid gene therapy.
wham all the notes can go and burned away
*BURN*
i am going errr mad.

then i can spend at least feew days SLEEPING
or eating or watching tv
or shopping
or stoning
EXCEPT FOR STUDYING
or chatting
or doing nth
then find a temp job
earn money
to shop
haha
vann wouold agree with me
the bottom line is: we are free for at least 4 mths.
wont laugh at the NS guys
cos u know they maybe right. theirs sound more interesting
while ours is like confined to eat sleep work shop.
besides my cousin say NS is fun as in really fun.
i never see him loooking tired or upset or sian-ed
woahhh:)

i want a's to finish fast
so that i can behave like a human:)
sleep eat play:))