i think something is wrong
how do u explain my gastric creating havoc

one more day to finish off block tests
seriously cant wait
shopping who cares about GST hike

went shopping yesterday before i got defeated by my gastric
sorry lah vann dont mean to not call u
looking at the prices, it went up by a few cents
so i reassure myself that its not a lot
LOL

walked down the memory lane yesterday
everything that feels so familar is like in the past
and yet no matter how much i am too stubborn to admit
the memory is still etched in my mind

and getting in touch with the memories made it hurt so badly
and coupled with gastric
its disastrous
and i guess no one really knows
i need a clone that would understand me
as in really knows how i feel
without me saying

i think i am weird throughout the day
feeling bits of anger hurt and a whole lot of things yesterday
and desperately wishing for something or someone to understand
and yeah walking down the memory lane really hurts a lot
and badly
i feel like just putting myself in a cave and not interact with anyone

nobody really knows the pain and i guess i have to walk through it alone
and i did yesterday



ended up reading more of baby blues than studying today
the nerves, the memories, the gastric are still working on me
and i am distracted for most of the day
and of cos by vann
who is always laughing

if i could have a clone or twin,
that would be nice
am sick of taking it all on my own and alone


block test tmr
and then good riddance

am going to stop walking down the memorylane
yes i am:)