i realised what a spendthrift i am LOL
ok i kinda realised that a loooooong time ago

kinda walking in a rather zone out manner with vann today
totally tired
and its rather ridiculous

this is the tenth time i said this
haaha i counted
SORRY, jiahao
lol for u wasting ur money
to cab down to school

got stupid things for dumb me
super childish things

got to get into the mood of mugging
which i am currently more in the mood of stoning sleeping watching movie
oh ocean 13 again:)
i can just watch the show ten times and wont get sick of it
more in the mood of shopping or actually i just want to sit down and chat the whole day off with my bastard
or stare at the wall myself
bt i settle for going to the lib myself and hide in some corner to mug hard
since going with bastard is damn distracting
esp the chatting and laughing part
unless we are both in a zoning mode
which is raaaaaaaare
and going with bestie makes me too high to study
vann always makes me high
haha no need for caffeine

still, i want to catch up with a lot of things
tv shows
loooooooong chats with bastard
i damn freaking miss it
cos of my love for sleep
where is my song ?? where?!
LOL
and to catch up with my studies

i am going to hide myself in a corner tmr to study
i make a plan to study the hist notes on economics i.e role of govern, the afc, the economic policies
and and the bio notes on evolution( which is super irritating). and my love, nervous system
with my new notebook
my new pencil case
my new pen
my new bag
did i mentioned that i bought them recently?
and ocean 13 again with bastard maybe after hiding
or maybe not, since its the period to study too
school school school
irritating my butt off

was thinking about random thoughts today again
people always say that its the process that counts, not the result
and hence, we should not care about the result
we should work for the process

its not practical at all, at all

who in this world work for process
who works so hard for the process of mugging
and nt for the grades that you are going to get after all the mugging
is there someone who dont mug hard for the As ,Bs
but for the process of mugging
?
i salute that person if there is one
who works hard for the process of working hard
and not for the promotion the pay rise
?
who works hard for the process
but not the silver gold medal?
its like if u work really hard, but u dont get the result, are u going to be happy?

wont everything be a mess then?
a huge mess

process is impt
but results are impt too
if u dont have a target or a goal, how are u going to know how far u can go?
they say: reach for the stars, cos when u fall, u fall on the clouds. reach for the cloud, and when u fall, u fall hard on the ground.
and yet there is this that contradicts the above one: the more u expect, the more disappointment u get.
so which one are we supposed to take into account?
the nicer former one, or the latter harsher one?
language is contradicting itself
why are we learning it then?

ok i am now more or less zoning out
tirrrrrrrreed after walking and walking
oh we met nat on the way
damnnnnn coincidence
love ya nattt shrek
:)
and i saw yvonne kuan!:)
miss her loads

and i misssssssss youu loads too
damn, why arent u at home yet?
argh
i got one whole load to rant off
prepare for 3 hours of whining and ranting
LOL

hols lessons over:)
muggin begins:(
......................................
......................tomorrow.

tatas
lalalaala
oh and i now offically smitten by brad pitt
gonna get all his movie vcds
mr and mrs smith my fave
ocean 11 and 12
brad pitt is my new idol:)

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